Remember, Remember, the Fifth of October...

dua hari lagi menjelang first day of mock exam (and it's physics first to be tested!!)

hmmm...kayaknya gw seharusnya ngga ngawalin blog hari ini dengan depresi tone kyk gitu...

karena...

hari ini, tanggal 5 oktober, is a very special day.

it was the day i first met (or rather knew) my passwordguy, and we've been good friends ever since. 

trus, cara gw celebrate hari ini adalah dgn nonton film di rumah, yg, tanpa gw sengaja, pilihannya mostly romance movies: dari p.s. i love you (dan ternyata film itu gagal menguras air mata gw), mamma mia (again!! walopun emang mamma mia ngga sepenuhnya romance, tapi gw liat dari sisi romantisnya aja), sama love is cinta di tv (gajebo!! sumpah filmnya mewek2 mulu ngga jelas...romance kek gtu ngga level dah.)

but enough romance movies, gw paling suka menghabiskan hari ini dgn mengingat kembali kejadian hari itu... 

*be prepared for a very long blog post!! o ya, pls be aware that i will be covering up some facts, just to hide passwordguy's real identity*

it was friday. gw inget banget gw lagi sakit flu hari itu and gw lagi nungguin mom gw dateng (ke mana?? can't tell you...) and di tempat itu gw duduk di kursi tunggu, di pojok ruangan itu,

sendirian.

bener2 bete abis, krn ngga ada yg bisa gw ajak ngomong. semuanya sibuk dengan urusan mereka sendiri, akhirnya gw denger discman gw aja, yg emang ada di tas sedari tadi (kebetulan lagu di dlmnya itu cdnya James Blunt yg All the Lost Souls....yah, wkt itu gw lagi suka banget ama 'Carry You Home'..) nah itu cd gw playback terus aja, sambil nunggu2.

and that was when the magic started.

gw ngeliat si password guy di ruangan itu juga, tepatnya di tengah2 ruangan.

sebenernya hari itu bukan hari pertama gw ktemu dia, soalnya uda sejak bbrp bulan sblmnya gw udah ngamat2in dia...

anyway, he was looking at my direction. i was, too. tadinya gw pikir itu cuma ilusi mata doang, secara mata gw juga agak minus, walopun pake bantuan kontak lens jg ngga berhasil mendeteksi apakah dy ngeliat ke arah gw..

tapi bener, dia ngeliat ke arah gw!! ya otomatis, gw udah seneng2 aja (dalem ati, ngga bener2 senyum2 girang kyk orang salah minum obat penenang) but fortunately for me, it wasn't over.

krn setelah dia selesai ngomong sama seseorang (again, can't tell you..), he got up from his seats n walked STRAIGHT TO AN EMPTY SEAT NEXT TO ME!! hualaaaah, bisa bayangin ngga gimana deg2annya gw saat itu...

oh ya, sebenernya, pas wkt itu, dia nggak bener2 duduk sebelah gw, dy sisain space satu bangku di antara dia ama gw, mungkin takut gw berpikiran aneh2 kali soal dia. nah, serunya, ada org iseng yg dateng trus ambil tu kursi di tengah qta, and as soon as the person left, taking the chair along, he dragged his chair CLOSER to me!! i know there must be something about this guy...

and we talked. about a lot of things. his interests, his dislikes...as well as mine. 

trus gw ceritain aja, gw lagi nungguin nyokap gw dtg, and bahwa gw lagi agak sakit batuk pilek...and dy ngasi saran super duper trouper aneh yg bisa keluar dari mulut seseorang, yaitu...

(gw ngga yakin apakah dgn ngasi tau ini, bakalan ada org yg tau identitas dy, tapi kalo seandainya ada yg tau, PLEASE KEEP THIS A SECRET) 

minum tolak angin as much as two boxes at a time. 

pedes kalii....emang sih, sarannya ngga pernah gw coba. gw yakin pasti dy lagi coba ngeledek gw...mungkin nanti ya gw coba, kalo gw lagi pgn mati trus mo bunuh diri...

trus qta ngomong apa lg ya?? yg bisa gw inget sih, ngomongin soal film alone (scara pas wkt itu emang lagi booming)and how to get to grand indo by transjakarta, ngomongin soal peran HRD (haha, dy emang agak nge-business trnyt orangnya), ngomongin soal univ, and finally, just talking about our fave musics.

sayangnya, conversation yg indah itu harus terhenti krn tiba2 hp gw vibrate, gitu gw cek trnyt ada telp masuk, and it's from mom.

which meant i had to go. so sad...so i said my goodbyes and left.

sorenya, pulang dr tempat itu, gw langsung tepar akibat flu tadi. trpaksa minum tolak angin sesachet. ironis....

tapi, momen bersejarah itu terjadi kira2....sekitar stengah jam kurang, perkiraan gw sekitar 20 menit (mungkin kurang dikit deh) dan momen itu akhirnya gw abadikan jadi sebuah lagu yg judulnya 20 Minutes of Happiness, gw bahasa indo-in, demi assignment musikalisasi puisi BI gw (daripada bikin baru??!) menjadi 20 Menit Kebahagiaan. oh btw, jangan pernah suruh gua maenin lagu itu, krn: 

1. lagu itu cuma enak didenger kalo pake gitar, dan gw kurang bisa maen gitar. 

2. kalopun ada yg bisa maeninnya, gw malu kasi dengernya, karena aransemennya ngaco abis deh...menurut org lain. di kuping gw seh, lagunya enak, tapi org laen ternyata ngga berpikiran seperti itu. huhuhu...

selain itu, krn lagu itu hasil terjemahan, jadi kata2 bahasa indonya ngaco2 dikit, dan kedengeran aneh gitu dimasukin ke melodinya. so yeah, i prefer the english version, dan suatu hari gw bakal coba bikin aransemen lagu buat yg versi englishnya. haha.

liriknya ntar gw post deh besok, soalnya gw juga udah nggak inget gmn bunyi puisinya, jd gw mesti ngorek2 arsip lama dulu.

one year, a few ups and downs, and a few common interests later.....

i just can't forget it. coz it was actually the day when i started to feel that....i have feelings for him. i like him. 

and i believe that he might like me, too.

maybe he doesn't exactly remember this particular day, or maybe he doesn't think it's special at all?? i don't know...tapi yg pasti, secara kebetulan, hari ini dy telp juga, ngomongin...a few things (and to finally hear his laughter again...it's always been a good medication on stress and boredom). apakah ini sebuah tanda that he might actually remember it? ah, maybe it's just a coincidence. gw juga ngga berani nanya sih, my condition disabled me from doing so.

setelah apa yg sudah terjadi setaon ini, it's so surprising that we never got together...hahaha.

maybe someday.

dan soal passwordguy, and the missing pieces of the story? that's the secret i will never tell.

well, at least 'til the day we get together.... ^^

ato sesial-sialnya, 'til the day when i figure out that i can't be with him.

udah ah, capek. hari ini gw udah cover all physics topics, which means i am pretty much around the safe zone (hurrayyy...!!) dan besok gw mo kerjain WL gw.